fear

Boy and howdy, I had a great deal of fear. I suppose to a degree it is a normal reaction, with the confusion in thought and perception comes the unknown, and with the unknown comes fear. One thing that really helped me keep fear at bay as well as reestablish solid thinking was to research anything that caused me fear. It not only allows you to learn what variables are involved in your fear, it is an active step in your recovery. It seems like a small thing, and indeed it is on a daily scale. Over months however you will find your research skills improving, your organizational skills improving, your general knowledge of your environment improving, and your fear levels decreasing with supporting evidence that remits it's causes. Fear can be a healthy thing in very small doses. An undefined and vague fear of the "future" is not a small dose, and it is not healthy. A little effort each day, even if it is just discussing your fears with another or web based research, is an active step in recovery that pays immediate dividends. I truly enjoyed college because this was a constant state of affairs to me, and I am a better man for it.